“I’m Not Ashamed” Producers Should Be

April 20, 2016 “I’m Not Ashamed” starring Sadie Robertson will hit the theaters. The premise of this movie is that, during the Columbine shooting, Rachel Scott was murdered for her faith in God. Sadie will play the cousin responsible for bringing Rachel to Christ.

Watch the movie intro here:

As you can see in the video above, the entire premise of I’m Not Ashamed is based around a dialog between Rachel and the shooters. That they asked her about her faith in God. Then killed her because she responded that she believed in God.

It is shameful that they are framing the entire premise of this movie around allegations that do not have any evidence to support them. The accounts of that day, actually, directly contradict them.

Outside the cafeteria, Rachel Scott, a student actress, was sitting in the grass and eating lunch with Richard Castaldo, attending his first year at Columbine after transferring from Catholic Machebeuf High School.


Suddenly bullets hit Scott. Too stunned to stand, Castaldo was slashed by gunfire, too. With two 9mm bullets in his left arm, one in the right and at least three others piercing his lungs, kidney and vertebrae, Castaldo somehow remained conscious.


Castaldo played dead to fool his attacker. Next to him, Scott curled in pain.


“She was lying in the grass crying,” Castaldo later told his mother. “They walked over to her and shot her again.”


The crying stopped. The shooting didn’t.


An extremely detailed timeline of events, combining all witness accounts, does not contain an exchange of words between Rachel and the shooters, either.

Eric and Dylan's position in relation to Rachel should be noted.

Eric and Dylan’s position in relation to Rachel should be noted.

Rachel’s father, Darrell Scott, had this to say about whether or not his daughter’s last words were an affirmation of her faith:

“It was never a major issue for me, whether Rachel said she believed in God,” Darrell Scott said. “Her life was ample proof of that. What she did in her diaries and preceding her death is more important than the last words she may have spoken.”

It’s interesting to note that Darrell Scott is not at all involved in the production of I’m Not Ashamed. He also does not have any involvement in Rachel Joy Scott Ministries.  That would be her mother Beth Nimmo who’s been cashing in on this alleged story for the years following the death of their daughter. With the book Rachel’s Tears, paid speaking appearances and television appearances.

Beth(seen on the couch in the intro video above) has made a career out of her daughter’s perceived martyrdom status:

Shots that pierced Columbine High School tore our hearts apart, yet provided a national wake-up call to all Americas. On that tragic day, Rachel Scott became one of the Christian martyrs. When asked, “Do you believe in God?” she said “Yes” and her life on earth ended moments later, but the testimony of her life has been heard around the world.

The stories shortly following the Columbine shootings attributed such words to Cassie Bernall, killed that day, and Valeen Schnurr, a survivor, in the library.

Cassie’s mother, Misty Bernall, published a book, She Said Yes, about her daughter’s martyrdom and battles to remain close to God, including a plot to kill her parents and dabbling with Satanism. Later it came out that the conversation between the shooters and Cassie never happened.

Valeen Schnurr doesn’t want her fellow freshmen to know her as Val, the girl from Columbine. Nor does she want to be known as the Girl Who Really Said Yes, or the Living Saint, or the Almost Martyr, even though she is all of those things. And she definitely doesn’t want to be known as the girl who punctured the myth of Cassie Bernall.

Val hasn’t jumped at the chance to profit off public speaking appearances, written books or have a movie being made about her. She has remained mostly quiet since debunking the myth of the moments before Cassie’s death . Why?

… Schnurr is devout enough to know that faith doesn’t depend on the details–that if Cassie’s example brings teenagers to Christ, that’s what’s important.

Val made these statements just months after Columbine happened. All these years later, for Christians around the world, the ends still justify the means. Martyr stories fill the church pews. Martyr stories get their surviving families best selling books and feature length movie deals.

Val is an “Almost Martyr” and letting her story be attributed to two other girls, makes them real martyr’s in the eyes of those who believe the myths. At the end of the day, the details don’t matter. The truth doesn’t matter. All that matters is bringing more people to Christ.

It’s sickening that a tragic event that took the lives of 13 – and altered the lives of an entire nation – continues to be manipulated for the gain of those with an agenda. It is a very dangerous slope to begin slipping down when the truth stops mattering.

All those involved with the making of I’m Not Ashamed should be extremely ashamed of themselves. This movie is a slap to the face of those who were there that day. Those who know what really happened. It’s dangerous because it will be yet another movie that pits believers against non-believers, by portraying non-believers as the enemy. In a country already so divided, this does not help lead us in a positive direction. We should not allow that to be skewed in an attempt to help people “find Jesus.”

We can only learn from history when we reflect on it honestly. I’m Not Ashamed is not an honest reflection.  The scene shown in the trailer below is a blatant lie.


“These are not ordinary kids who were bullied into retaliation,” psychologist Peter Langman writes in his new book, Why Kids Kill: Inside the Minds of School Shooters. “These are not ordinary kids who played too many video games. These are not ordinary kids who just wanted to be famous. These are simply not ordinary kids. These are kids with serious psychological problems.”


A decade after Harris and Klebold made Columbine a synonym for rage, new information — including several books that analyze the tragedy through diaries, e-mails, appointment books, videotape, police affidavits and interviews with witnesses, friends and survivors — indicate that much of what the public has been told about the shootings is wrong. In fact, the pair’s suicidal attack was planned as a grand — if badly implemented — terrorist bombing that quickly devolved into a 49-minute shooting rampage when the bombs Harris built fizzled. So whom did they hope to kill? Everyone — including friends.

Instead of pitting believers against non-believers, which has been a theme in this country in recent years, we should think about what could have pushed Eric and Dylan to do something like this. What signs did family, friends and administrators miss? How can we prevent similar attacks from happening in the future?

Edited to add: Within an hour of us publishing this article news of the 45th shooting on a school campus this year began to flood our social media feeds. We reiterate our concluding statement again “How can we prevent similar attacks from happening in the future?”


How old were you? Were you in school? How did things change?


Koni’s personal reflection on Columbine:

On April 20, 1999 I was a 13 year-old 7th grade student at Del Crest Junior High in Del City, Oklahoma. That morning students arrived at school with their favorite band t-shirts on, untucked, and not much of a care in the world.


After news of Columbine spread that all changed. Very quickly. Any t-shirts displaying bands Dylan and Eric were reported to have listened to were banned. All shirts were to be tucked in at all times. The following winter (and every winter of my junior high and high school career there after) trench coats were seen as immediate threats and anyone wearing one was reprimanded. A good number of kids I interacted with were suspended or even expelled for wearing Marilyn Manson t-shirts, black nail polish or anything else that made the school administration fear they may be “followers” of Dylan and Eric.


In the sheer panic that swept the country we stopped being allowed to just be kids. Suddenly, everything we did was suspect and could be a sign that we intended to carry out a copy-cat Columbine.


Churches began distributing t-shirts to their youth groups with the phrase “She said Yes” across the front. Many of my classmates had them. It was alleged at the time that one of the victims, Cassie Bernall, had been killed for professing her faith in God in the library that day. She was upheld by the Christian community as a martyr.


Along with fire drills, we began having school shooting drills at school. I remember my choir teacher explaining to us why both doors into the choir room would be locked at all times. To never open them, for any reason, without clearance from the front office first. Hall passes weren’t allowed for any reason for about a month.


Those of you that remember life before and after this event can attest for yourself that so much changed… Everything changed that day. The sense of safety we had before has never returned and likely never will. Not in our lifetime, anyway.

Preston’s personal reflection on Columbine:

On the day of the Columbine shooting I was 8 years old attending 3rd grade in a Catholic School across the street from my home in Bronx, NY. I was in a sheltered setting so I can only recall what I came to know as I was growing up.


I do remember the paranoia about Marilyn Manson because I was a fan through my brother, which was 10 years older than me. I couldn’t tell people I listened to him because every person would say it was Satanic and demonic and such. I always laughed it off, even at a younger age while studying and believing in Catholicism.


One thing I can attest to is that I have never experienced public schooling without “Shooter drills” or dress codes meant to avert concealment of firearms and such. I saw a documentary quite a few years ago and remember thinking that these two men were simply evil. Somewhere in these two humans lives, humanity was twisted into a dark and evil monstrosity.


If still alive these two would deserve nothing more than to be locked away for the tragedy they inflicted upon many innocent lives.  There was no exact rhyme or reason to the other innocent lives that were lost and the few that were spared personally by one of these monsters. I remember hearing about one of the girls being asked if she believed in God and them laughing, then shooting her to death.


After investigating the official reports for the first time there is a lot of information that the public does not know about. There are journals left by the killers which display the obsession they had with this planned crime. The real intent was to kill everybody, including their friends, with the bombs but they were wired poorly. To use this as a martyrdom story doesn’t exactly surprise me as they already believe in a grand myth without any supporting contemporary evidence. To them the truth doesn’t matter so long as people find Christ, and this is why we can’t have nice things.